Thanks to my Blogger friend, Blessing from Blessing Shares, I’ll be running a truth series every Wednesday (reblog from her blog) and Friday (my own post) of October. Basically the concept behind this is to share heartfelt posts with a lot of emotions that we probably would never have published on the blog. 😉
Please join us through this series as it promises to be exciting!
I’ve set out a couple of times on a journey to find myself. To dig into my soul and answer the never-ending questions of ‘Who I am?’ ‘Why am I here?’ ‘Why me?’ Believe me, it never stops! You may find the answer at the beginning of the year but mid-way, you totally forget who you really are. Or someone asks you and you start fumbling for words.
I think self-finding is a never-ending quest. Because as you grow, you begin to learn new things about yourself. Things you detested may even become your favourite things. You begin to build capacity in areas where you lacked and so on. Continue reading “Truth Series: Finding Myself”→
We’ve reached the 13th day of the A-Z blogging challenge which means we’re halfway already! Awesome! Churning out contents everyday is crazy! There are some days when I’d blankly stare at my screen and not have what to write but God always intervenes! Thank God! 😊
I think my favourite letter is M because that’s my name 😃 Plus there are quite a number of topics that start with M. Anywho, I’ll be talking on ‘Me, my and mine’ *dusts off English textbooks and picks up glasses*
Me- used by a speaker to refer to himself/herself
My- of/belonging to me
Mine- refers to a thing or things belonging to the speaker.
I can hear you say “Okay M, cut to the chase- I don’t need any more English lessons.” My bad!
Yeah so ‘Me’;Selfishness takes root from this word. It’s all about me, I’m ‘self made’, it’s all mine! Just a few examples of sentences which have selfish indicators. (You know, like a ‘self-radar’ you can tell when one is selfish).
TBH, I’m pretty selfish myself and highly possessive with a big ‘MINE’ written all over ‘my’ stuffs. My admittance to that is because God has been pointing me towards it. I can sit here and tell you man is inherently selfish, so I have every right to be. But this only negates the work of transformation Christ has done in us. ‘The old things are passed away and all things become new (2 Cor 5:17)’ So why do we cling to selfishness as though our lives depend on it?
When you think only about ‘me’, everything you do will be in pursuit of ‘my’ objectives by ‘my’ abilities and whatever you attain will be seen as ‘mine’. I hope you got that, because that’s key.
A ‘me’ person who thinks only of themselves would seek to achieve their ‘my’ goals and dreams by their ‘my’ abilities in order to get stuffs they can boldly tag as ‘mine’
I hope I haven’t lost you. Just take it in slowly.
A ‘me’ centered mentality is destructive and could lead to serious depression when the ‘my’ plans don’t work out ‘my’ way. Or you could end up in sadness when the things that are ‘mine’ are stolen or destroyed.
So what’s the remedy?
Take the focus off ‘me’ and put it on God. We are sure there is no shadow of turning with Him. His yes is yes and His no is no. He’s not gonna be political with you nor will He deceive you. So make it about Him.
Then begin to pursue ‘His’ goals and plans. FYI, don’t think for a second it will be some invisible transaction ’cause He’s gonna ask you to do stuffs for people that would pinch you. He will work on your pride and ego.
Instead of ‘mine’ it will be ‘ours’. So don’t frown when He tells you to give someone that new dress you got or that money you were stashing in the bank. Not even that plate of food would be ‘mine’. Notice I said ‘ours’ because God wouldn’t be possessive of your material things in order to use them for Himself. The shared partnership is so you have enough for yourself and enough for others. He understands when that money in your pocket is all you have and He won’t ask you to give it away to spite you. He will ask you to give it away so you receive something more. Which still isn’t solely yours.
I know this is mind racking! It is for me as I type away on my phone this rainy morning.
When you shift the focus from yourself to God, you’re also opening yourself up to men. As you pursue God’s heart, you will find yourself doing things for people or serving in ways you never imagined! Even if you’re not a talker, God may just nudge you to talk to someone on the bus or wherever and that in itself could be lifesaving.
And when you start making profit from all the things He has taught you to do, don’t for one moment think it’s all for you (like that fool in the Bible). He will open your eyes to needs around you and you will find yourself giving away all you got.
Best part? You will be fulfilled if you obediently follow His instructions (Isaiah 1:19). You will go to bed with a smile across your face every night even if you have nothing in your account. Why? Because you know God’s got you.
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M: Lately, I feel like you’re so far away. Or maybe more concerned with other pressing issues. I know it’s the enemy’s deception, but sometimes I can’t help it. Doubts crawl into my mind like bugs in an abandoned apartment. I want to believe you’re here, but sometimes it’s so hard to see behind the fog. True though, it’s really foggy outside my window.
G: Go on, I’m listening.
M: I know I’ve pulled back from you. Because I don’t feel you anymore.
G: But what ever happened to leaping in faith? Trusting me to catch you when you fall?
M: You don’t understand! It’s so freaking hard to believe you’re there when everything goes south. Like right now; I’m confused, I’m tired, I’m depressed, I’m lonely and I can’t help myself. Yes, I’ve called on you but I can’t see you reaching out to help me.
G: Are my hands too short that I can’t save you? Or my ears too dull that I can’t hear you? Do you think for a second, that I, who formed the eyes cannot see?
M: It’s overwhelming, Lord.
G: Have the storms killed you? Have the waters drowned you?
M: Honestly, I feel like I’m 6 ft. under the ground everyday- just a walking dead.
G: I would never give you more than you can handle. And you need to remember feelings are but smoke, they fizzle out. You can’t hold on to them for long.
M: I know, Lord. But I’m only human and it’s not my fault that you’ve given me the ability to feel.
G: Now she blames me. Classic human!
M: Please forgive me. I’m just so frustrated. I don’t know what to believe anymore.
G: You’re forgiven. But I have some questions you need to answer.
M: I’m listening, Lord.
G: Have I promised never to leave nor forsake you?
M: Yes you have.
G: Then why do you think I’ve left you for more pressing issues? I’m slightly offended by how little you think of me. Do you really think I need to leave one place to be in another place? What’s your definition of omnipresence?
M: Sighs. I can’t get past my mind trying to figure you the way I figure humans. Please forgive me.
G: I am not a man that I should lie, nor a son of man, that I should change my mind. Do I speak and then not act? Do I promise and not fulfill? Haven’t I said my strength is made perfect in your weakness?
M: I’m despaired, Lord. I was afraid that you had turned your back on me, so I resolved to go my way. Waddling in depression and seeking satisfaction from things that couldn’t satisfy.
G: My thoughts are not your thoughts; your ways are not my ways. As the Heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than yours. What would be the difference between you and I if I have to do things the way you want them to be done?
M: I want your ways, Lord and I repent of my evil ways.
G: Then trust in me with all your heart. Don’t lean on your understanding! The moment you think you’ve got me all figured out is the moment I’ll surprise you. Just believe that I will bring you to that expected end, you don’t need to know how.
M: Yes Lord, I believe. But help my unbelief.
G: Why do you doubt? If I gave you the one thing I cherished the most- my son, what else will I withhold from you?
G: Need I remind you that NOTHING can separate you from my love?
M: Thank you for loving me.
G: So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
M: Thank you Father.
G: I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.
M: I adore you for you are the God of all comfort who comforts me in my troubles; so that I can comfort others in trouble with the comfort I’ve received from You.
Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.- Isaiah 1:18