‘Lady High Control Freak’ was the nickname given to me by myself and my friends. I loved to be in control. Heck! I could control how I spoke, what I said, how I sat, how I looked, and how things should go. Or so I thought!
There’s a god effect that comes from being in control. You’re never taken by surprise. People become pawns on your chessboard as you play everyone towards your end goal. Being in control was an obsession, that made me struggle with the concept of uncertainty. I always wanted to have all the answers.
But life had its plans.
For someone like me who could plan my wardrobe down to what I was gonna wear in the third week of the next month, not knowing how things would pan out induced severe anxiety in me. Life threw some curveballs— a career change here, a few drawbacks there and puff! My illusion of being in control was over.
This year in itself has been a rollercoaster ride from the first month. But I’m slowly learning that screaming and throwing up on the ride wouldn’t make the ride stop. So what other choice do I have than to just sit back and enjoy the ride.
There’s really little we can control. Understanding this truth is the first step towards freedom. Sometimes you need to stop fighting against the current and just go with the flow, trusting the one who created life to see you through all of life’s ups and downs.
I’m a recovering control freak, and to be honest, I still freak out when I can’t see the end of a decision before making it. But I’ll keep trusting God because I know he will never fail me. I hope you do too!
It’s always my desire that you live victoriously!
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