Change is uncomfortable. It’s like that woolly cardigan that itches you when you wear it; or those pair of shoes that wouldn’t fit. Change is not easy but absolutely necessary. I have changed. I feel it. With every aching muscle, with every tap on the keyboard; with every deadline I’ve scaled through; with every new thought; with every new environment… I can say I have changed. Change may not look good but after a while, it feels really good.
School kicked off two months ago and I had all shades of fears. Fear of being alone; of starting again; of failure; of making new friends; of fitting in; of being without my family and more! I couldn’t even last a week in my new apartment because of the fears- of roaches especially! LOL.
I was afraid of change. But then, who isn’t?
Behind the fear was a tinge of excitement; of starting something new; of being a part of something bigger than me; of being right where God would have me. Besides, he’s always said:
Have I not told you? Be strong and have strength of heart! Do not be afraid or lose faith. For the Lord your God is with you anywhere you go. -Josh 1:9
It’s two months now. It’s been tasking, it’s been bumpy; it’s been enlightening; it’s been overwhelming. But I know I have changed. I have grown. I’ve made friends. I’ve learned some more. And now I can say, change isn’t so bad after all. Matter of fact, it’s beautiful!
Sorry I know I’ve been MIA and I’m not happy about it. I’ll try to post more often. I’ve missed you guys! Any new changes with you? I would like to know more about it.
Lots of love,