It’s past 7:00 PM on a Friday night. All I can see is the blank page on my computer screen. It’s like the cursor is mocking me again.
I should probably go out and blow some steam. But then again, I can’t help feeling I haven’t taken in enough steam to blow off.
Probably the most skeletal piece I can come up with. But I want to. I need to… WRITE. This blog has been my safe haven. But suddenly, it feels like I’m locked out. Shut off.
I should probably explain my whereabouts; apologize for leaving you hanging, and eagerly promise to be consistent again. Or who am I kidding? Sighs. Please bear with me.
My thoughts are weaving crazy knots again. It’s Friday night. All I can think of are my assignments left undone, my projects- yet to find the bearing. No one said being in school would be all fun and games. And maybe, they warned about how tough it would be. Why then do I feel like a wet biscuit, crumbling under the pressure of it all?
I wanted to talk to you. Several times I tried to type. To say how much I missed being here. But my frozen brain just wouldn’t thaw. My fingers, paralysed from stress could no longer create a literary symphony.
I wonder… would you still stay? Till I find my voice again. Oh, but I’ve been silent for so long! Would I ever speak again with that soothing voice that made you return for more? Or has He taken back the gift? The conflict; endless, the struggle; relentless.
It’s Friday night. I probably would stay here till the lights go out. Soaking myself in the misery bath I’ve made myself with my pool of tears. Or maybe, just maybe, I could take Him by that offer.
Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly. -Matt 11:28-30 (MSG)
Now, isn’t that refreshing? 🙂
How have you been? Have you been stressed lately? How did you handle that? Please share!
Lots of love,