I should write something. Anything. The silence is killing me. The boredom is eating me up. Isn’t this when creativity comes alive? When you’re bored? 

Sometimes I feel like my mind goes into hibernation. For the life of me, I can’t seem to get myself to do anything to salvage this. I just hope I can write something. Anything.

This feels like torture. The place of nothingness. Dreams stuck in the virtual world. Reality mocking.

Adam; I think about him lately. Like how was He before Eve? Running around with animals? Taking lone strolls in the garden? What was going on in his mind? Was he just content being the pride of the Creator? Or did he think there was something more. That ‘more’ that makes us work harder than our parents to get what they didn’t. That more that drives us out of bed even when we barely slept.

Was he fine being all by himself? Was he content in his special abilities and unique traits that distinguished him from the animals? Or did he want to be like them- to form a community. To nestle into each other when the cold winds blew?

I can do bad all by myself. I faintly remember that Tyler Perry movie. But the title sure stuck. Can we really do all bad or good by ourselves? Was man created for himself? What’s the bond that attracts us to other people? What is that innate desire in us to belong somewhere- a group, a clique, a heart? Wherever!

I’ve often pondered on the two major commandments that hinge on love. Love for God and love for man. The triangle of love. Does it mean, man can’t be a straight line with just a two-way love communication between him and God? Why people? Why does God place so much importance in them?

People. Different in so many ways, alike in yet some others. While some people build others up, some tear them down. Sometimes, the same category. Why is it so hard to forgive? Yet again, why is it harder to love? Love. Should be easy yeah? At least that’s what Hollywood and Bollywood had me believing.

Or maybe I should have stuck with the paranoia from Nollywood. The horrendous acts of betrayal and distrust that has fraught every form of relationship- be it father-daughter or husband-wife. But is everyone really out to betray you? Aren’t there people worth our trust? Aren’t there fellow companions to make this grueling journey on earth a little easier? Sure they are.

The Bible warns:

This is what the LORD says: “Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who draws strength from mere flesh and whose heart turns away from the LORD. -Jeremiah 17:5

Stop trusting in mere humans, who have but a breath in their nostrils. Why hold them in esteem? -Isaiah 2:22

One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. -Proverbs 18:24

There it is! While there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother, there’s also that who brings one to destruction. How do I marry these two? Lo, man was created to love and be loved. To be in relationships and build community. But the only reliable source of all love and friendship is God. From Him we learn how to truly love and forgive. By Him, we are assured that though men would betray us and leave us forsaken. He never will.

I’m glad I wrote. I feel better. Thanks for reading. I’d like to read your random thoughts too.

~M.