I’m so addicted to the pain
I don’t know how to live without it
I’m so addicted to the tears
I don’t wear mascara anymore
I’m so addicted to the hurt
It doesn’t hurt anymore

I’m addicted to them walking away
I don’t expect them to stay
I’m addicted to their lies
I don’t believe the truth
I don’t allow the wounds to heal
I’m so addicted to the pain
I don’t know how to live without it
I shut my blinds so the morning doesn’t come
So joy doesn’t come in the morning
I hide in the shadows provided by the night
And wallow in the tears I’ve cried

I’m so used to the burden on my back
I don’t know how to exchange it for any lighter
I’m so addicted to these chains
I fail to notice they are broken
I’m so addicted to my pain
I don’t know how to live in His victory.

Save me from these addictions
That have such a strong hold on me
These thoughts that are as thorns to your rooted word
These lies that I hold as truth
Save me from the pain I don’t know how to live without!

Β©Mfon Etuk, 2016

Some of us are so accustomed to the pain and hurt, the depression and addictions,we don’t even know how to live without them. But you can’t live anything short of victory after the bloody death Jesus died to give you life!
I declare freedom from every addiction and depression that has held you bound in Jesus name! Amen.

Love,
M.

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