Pain Addict

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I’m so addicted to the pain
I don’t know how to live without it
I’m so addicted to the tears
I don’t wear mascara anymore
I’m so addicted to the hurt
It doesn’t hurt anymore

I’m addicted to them walking away
I don’t expect them to stay
I’m addicted to their lies
I don’t believe the truth
I don’t allow the wounds to heal
I’m so addicted to the pain
I don’t know how to live without it
I shut my blinds so the morning doesn’t come
So joy doesn’t come in the morning
I hide in the shadows provided by the night
And wallow in the tears I’ve cried

I’m so used to the burden on my back
I don’t know how to exchange it for any lighter
I’m so addicted to these chains
I fail to notice they are broken
I’m so addicted to my pain
I don’t know how to live in His victory.

Save me from these addictions
That have such a strong hold on me
These thoughts that are as thorns to your rooted word
These lies that I hold as truth
Save me from the pain I don’t know how to live without!

Β©Mfon Etuk, 2016

Some of us are so accustomed to the pain and hurt, the depression and addictions,we don’t even know how to live without them. But you can’t live anything short of victory after the bloody death Jesus died to give you life!
I declare freedom from every addiction and depression that has held you bound in Jesus name! Amen.

Love,
M.

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48 thoughts on “Pain Addict

    mihrank said:
    September 25, 2016 at 10:54 AM

    this is deeply important, your words made me understand more about pain…

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 26, 2016 at 1:00 PM

      I’m glad it did. Thanks Mihran ❀ πŸ™‚

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    elynjay1 said:
    September 25, 2016 at 12:46 PM

    Amen!!!…… Beautiful words. πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

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    beckylblog said:
    September 26, 2016 at 1:48 AM

    Hmmm… Pain/scar part of life

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 26, 2016 at 1:06 PM

      Yeah, true…an integral part of life πŸ™‚ Thanks Beckyl.

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    Abai TV said:
    September 26, 2016 at 11:41 AM

    This is more of a prayer than a poem. Well done

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 26, 2016 at 1:07 PM

      Lol. Thank God. Thanks dear.

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    Courtney said:
    September 26, 2016 at 2:27 PM

    Amen! Beautiful words! πŸ™ŒπŸ‘πŸ˜Š

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    Pain Addict – the flying dutchman said:
    September 26, 2016 at 3:39 PM

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    captain of the flying dutchman said:
    September 26, 2016 at 3:42 PM

    I enjoyed it, wonderful read, however does prayer set us free from depression ma?

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    officialnnamdi said:
    September 26, 2016 at 5:54 PM

    Amazing piece Dainty! I just discovered yesterday that you are a poet as well through your IG. Wow! Talent πŸ˜ƒ

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    Adjarho Michael said:
    September 26, 2016 at 9:48 PM

    Amen…

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    D'Dream said:
    September 27, 2016 at 7:55 AM

    This is awesome and deep! More grace

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    Tamie said:
    September 27, 2016 at 10:07 AM

    This is beautiful

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 27, 2016 at 12:15 PM

      Thank God! Thanks Tamie for stopping by πŸ™‚

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    Damola A said:
    September 27, 2016 at 11:26 AM

    Hi Mfon😊 I nominated you for the liebster award..please check it out. Thanks

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 27, 2016 at 3:03 PM

      Thank you Damola! Really appreciate the award. xx

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    lifeaschristy said:
    September 27, 2016 at 2:58 PM

    This is so beautiful. I was just having a conversation with a friend today concerning being addicted to pain. And this was exactly what we were saying. It’s like you spoke my mind on this one. Thank you for sharing.

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 27, 2016 at 3:10 PM

      Oh wow! Thank God! I’m happy you could relate. I guess we are getting telepathic- LOL. Thanks Christy!

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    Rashmi said:
    September 27, 2016 at 6:43 PM

    this poem is awesome and heart touching.. One of the best poems I ever read.. πŸ™‚

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 27, 2016 at 7:00 PM

      Thank God! It’s humbling to hear that from you. Thank you so much. πŸ™‚

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        Rashmi said:
        September 27, 2016 at 7:03 PM

        You are most welcome.. Not at all humble Daity.. You have done a great job.. You deserve it.. πŸ™‚

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        Dainty M responded:
        September 28, 2016 at 10:46 AM

        Lol, thanks again Rashmi! ❀ ❀

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        Rashmi said:
        September 28, 2016 at 12:40 PM

        You are most welcome Dainty.. πŸ™‚

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    Diana M said:
    September 27, 2016 at 8:05 PM

    Yesssss and Amen!!
    ❀️❀️

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    Papberry said:
    September 28, 2016 at 2:15 PM

    Amen!!
    The first step to getting healed is knowing and accepting that you are sick, but how do you get healed when the sickness has become a part of you because it has been accepted.
    May the Almighty God stretch His healing hand towards anyone imbibed in pain to relief them. Amen

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 28, 2016 at 2:18 PM

      Amen!! Thanks Papberry! You’re such a blessing. πŸ™‚

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    Claris Kapinga said:
    September 29, 2016 at 1:04 AM

    Amen sister! X x πŸ™‚

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 29, 2016 at 9:16 AM

      God bless! πŸ™‚

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    oyide said:
    October 7, 2016 at 1:37 PM

    Amen! Amen! The chains have fallen in the Name of JESUS CHRIST. Amen! It is Galatians 3:13 *dancing*

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    lifeofanaddictswife said:
    November 30, 2016 at 10:51 AM

    Love this ❀️

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      Dainty M responded:
      November 30, 2016 at 12:39 PM

      Glad you do! πŸ™‚ Thanks for stopping by!

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    Tom Stump said:
    December 19, 2016 at 1:15 AM

    I’ve been like a masochist before, sticking my head in a meat grinder and begging for more. The dissonance this had caused within me diminished my ability to pull out…with every turn. It was like being caught in a sinister cycle until a force of intervention stepped in to stop the madness.

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      Dainty M responded:
      December 19, 2016 at 7:14 PM

      Oh dear! Thank you for sharing your story Tom! Glad there was a silver lining in the end 😊

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        Tom Stump said:
        December 20, 2016 at 5:02 AM

        No problem. Thank you. Always a lining somewhere πŸ™‚

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    Cristal Clear said:
    January 6, 2017 at 1:04 AM

    awesome post !

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    fabsensei said:
    May 17, 2017 at 4:13 PM

    This is so touching and beautiful. And I can relate to it… unfortunately…

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