Letters to the Depressed 2

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If you’re reading this, then you probably read the first letter and you’re back as I asked. Or not. It’s just an assumption. I’ve been trying to write to you. But my cares and worries won’t let me. I’ve been trying to speak to you but my voice is muffled inside. I’ve been trying to reach you, to let you know this too shall pass. Well, it either passes or you pass from it.  LTTD

Depression is not who you are. I spoke about this in my first letter. It’s a state you pass through. Don’t be possessive about it. It’s not ‘your’ depression. It’s a state of mind that passes over. Just as the dark clouds do when the sun shines. Just as with the dark clouds, it could rain… Heck! There’ll be storms and floods in some parts. Do we let this sweep us away? Do we let its slithery seductive fingers pierce us so bad we lose sight of the reason for living?

Ah! Death and life. Sometimes I prefer the former to the latter. A freedom from the bondage of this life, you may say. Wrong! That’s just a mirage the devil uses to make us think death would be the end of depression.  It isn’t. Death looks more attractive than life when you’re depressed.

Diary entry 1

If I die now 

What would you have left? 

Please know I struggled 

I struggled to live or not to 

Life kicked me down 

Life punched the guts out of me 

Death beckoned 

As a shiny portal to a new life 

A place where my tears will be scarce 

A place where I would be free 

From the clutches of living 

If I die now 

Please know I tried 

I tried to stay positive 

To keep hope alive 

To see the light at the end of the tunnel 

But the only light I saw 

stood in death’s doorway 

I waited for a push 

I could never walk in by myself 

I prayed someone would usher me 

If I die now 

Then someone finally did me a favour 

Putting an end to my pain 

I carried it for so long 

Oh how miserable it made me 

I couldn’t explain it 

People thought I was crazy 

There was no reason to be sad 

But I still found myself 

In a pool of my tears 

If I die now 

Know that I’m happy it’s over 

I wish I could have stayed longer 

But I’m happier where I am 

Finally in paradise 

M.

You see there, I’ve pretty much thought of death as well. But hey, you have no right to take your life! Suicide isn’t an option. Yes, the world could be a crazy place. But not for one second should you think nobody cares…I wouldn’t be writing this if I didn’t. Don’t even think nobody loves you… He wouldn’t send His son to die for you if He didn’t.

The devil plays a trick on our minds, making us think we’re all alone in this world! Truth is, you aren’t. Your existence matters to someone. Don’t believe the lies that you are a mistake. There’s someone who cares. There’s someone whose life is dependent on you getting through this. Someone you need to help out. Someone who needs a reason to live. And you can’t be there for them if you die now.

As much as I appreciate all the times I am joyful and peachy, I equally cherish those moments of depression. We cry, we laugh. We have ups and downs. There is a time for everything. I need you to get the lessons from this season, as I did. By going through it, I can write to you in all honesty.

The dark clouds will come. The storms will rage. But if you’ve got Him in your heart, you can rest assured that peace will reign and storms will be stilled.

I pray God uses this to bless your heart and to let you know you’re not alone.

Dear friend, I want you to live and not die. I want us to live and live victoriously.

Love,

~M.

 

True wisdom and real power belong to God. From Him we learn how to live and also what to live for.  -Job 12:13 (MSG)

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12 thoughts on “Letters to the Depressed 2

    thefeatheredsleep said:
    September 9, 2016 at 8:24 PM

    I did read the first and this is terrific also!

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 13, 2016 at 2:39 AM

      Thank God! I’m happy you enjoyed it 😊

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    Damola A said:
    September 10, 2016 at 6:22 PM

    Even better than the first!! I have to share this. Suicide is not the answer, God cares and loves so much. The devil just tries to make us blind to it. Good job!

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 11, 2016 at 11:04 PM

      Thank God! I’m happy someone could relate 🙂

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    Emily said:
    September 10, 2016 at 8:43 PM

    Thank you for baring your heart so honestly M! That is such a raw and beautiful poem. I definitely agree that with God we can get through anything. What has really helped my depression is knowing that God is my anchor, always walking me through it! That helps the waves of sadness pass as I welcome His present peace.

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 13, 2016 at 2:41 AM

      Thanks Emily! Yes indeed God is our anchor even in the storm. I pray we never forget that. It sure took a lot to drop that poem but I thank God for courage. Thanks for supporting me on this journey 😊

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    Oluwasesan said:
    September 11, 2016 at 11:30 PM

    You are a blessing, suicide is not an option, its all devils lies, demonic suggestions. When evever I get such thoughts I have learnt to take solace in the words of God, one especially that tells me I have been given a spirit of strength, of courage and of sound mind. Keep up the light shining and salting, I hope this reaches ones who really need it. Cheers .

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 13, 2016 at 2:36 AM

      Amen. I hope so too! Thank God for His word. I like how you apply it and I think that’s a great advice! Thanks Sesan. God bless you for your contribution 😊

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    Courtney said:
    September 19, 2016 at 4:53 PM

    Mfon, I’m so sorry to hear that you went through such a dark time. Please stay—the world needs your light and voice! That was a powerful post and I believe that it touched many who are struggling with this. We were all put on earth for a reason and God has a purpose for each of our lives—we’re strong enough to push past all of the dung that life throughs at us!

    My best friend Alex and I have a signature saying—Stay strong! OK, so truth be told we may have gotten that from Demi Lovato and a million inspirational quotes. Nonetheless, I think it applies here! To anyone struggling with depression and suicide, Stay Strong!

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      Dainty M responded:
      September 19, 2016 at 6:55 PM

      Lol. Thanks for sharing the saying! You’re right, we are strong enough to push past the dung life throws at us especially with God on our side.
      Thank you for the comforting words Courtney! 🙂

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    livelytwist said:
    October 10, 2016 at 1:19 AM

    I like the Message Translation of the scripture at the end.

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