Self Hate

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I hate my body, she said, 

And my heart sank

Because clearly she didn’t think I did a good job creating her 

She began to pull chunks of flesh that I had so intricately formed 

She pointed at spots that I had used to punctuate her perfect skin 

 

I hate my body, he said 

As he used his skin as a canvass for artwork 

Soon enough it was hard to tell his skin tone 

As all I could see were tattoos carved on the skin I had taken so much time to form 

 

I hate my body she said 

As she cut herself up 

Absorbing all the drugs she could 

Just to take her mind off her hurt and insecurities 

 

I hate how I look! He yelled 

Abusing substance more than one could imagine 

Getting so high 

Surely he was about to fall 

 

Why did you make me? 

She sobbed while standing on the bridge 

Ready to disappear in the waters 

At least one less ugly duckling 

Would make the world a better place 

Or so she thought 

 

It grieved me that they couldn’t see 

What I saw 

So short-sighted, 

They needed glasses to see 

How I made their skins  

So unique,  

The sun couldn’t scar it 

The cold winter couldn’t mar it 

 

Who told you that you were ugly? 

Better yet, 

Who can make a better you? 

Please raise your hands!

Let’s enter a contest and see who wins 

 

Just because you create little Barbie dolls 

Doesn’t mean you make the perfect body 

Oh please! Humour me by creating man!  

Who said stitching yourself all over would make you beautiful? 

I look down and wonder where my daughter is 

 

Do you think for a moment 

That I lied when I said you were good? 

Good enough, 

I had to rest from making you 

 

Who made the birds? 

Do you think for a moment 

That I who made those beautiful creatures 

Would not also make you more beautiful? 

 

I crafted you with my hands 

I knew you before you were conceived 

Please don’t believe the lies that you were a mistake 

You were ordained from the start 

Check the master plan if you doubt 

 

I made you unique 

One of a kind 

Custom designed  

If you doubt, check who matches your fingerprints 

 

Why grieve me? 

Why make me sad? 

My dear one 

Don’t believe the lies 

Don’t hurt yourself 

Because you’re hurting me in the process 

 

I still love you.

-From Your Father

  ©Mfon Etuk, 2016

 

 

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34 thoughts on “Self Hate

    Neeti said:
    July 24, 2016 at 3:38 PM

    Awwww beautifully described ! 🙂
    Touches so intensly deep within!

    Hi welcome to my world…

    https://inkyquillblog.wordpress.com

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      Dainty M responded:
      July 24, 2016 at 3:47 PM

      Thank God! Thanks for stopping by Neeti, would check out your blog as well! God bless.

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    Diary of A BlueBlood said:
    July 24, 2016 at 7:02 PM

    Wow. This is beautiful.

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    mihrank said:
    July 24, 2016 at 7:56 PM

    greatly and beautifully described…

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      Dainty M responded:
      July 24, 2016 at 8:14 PM

      Thank God! And thank you! 😊

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    Emily said:
    July 25, 2016 at 1:05 AM

    I love this! It reminds me of my Identity Crisis post on Transformer Girl’s website. It’s so awesome how God is speaking to His children about our true worth and beauty. We’re worth more than rubies ❤💎

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      Dainty M responded:
      July 25, 2016 at 6:34 PM

      Indeed we are! Oh yeah, but I thought it was more like your self love post 😀 Thanks Emily! ❤

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    Sarah said:
    July 25, 2016 at 5:10 AM

    Beautiful poetry, Mfon! 😀

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    Papberry said:
    July 25, 2016 at 12:18 PM

    Beautifully crafted!

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    Uyane said:
    July 25, 2016 at 5:36 PM

    I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Thanks for the reminder.

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      Dainty M responded:
      July 25, 2016 at 6:38 PM

      Thank God! We all need to remember this, even I forget it a lot of times 🙂 Thank you too Uyane! ❤

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    D'Dream said:
    July 25, 2016 at 7:49 PM

    Wow!!!!!! This is beautiful!

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    captain of the flying dutchman said:
    July 26, 2016 at 3:24 PM

    wow. this is a really nice piece something i believe everyone out there should get a chance to read

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    Hayley said:
    July 27, 2016 at 3:44 AM

    Wow. This is incredible. It literally took my breath away. You are very talented and a direct voice of the divine! Such a heart wrenching and truthful poem that anyone who lacks self love would benefit from reading! xx

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      Dainty M responded:
      July 27, 2016 at 7:11 PM

      Thank God for the inspiration! Thank you too for stopping by and making me smile. God bless your kind heart! ❤

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    Hayley said:
    July 27, 2016 at 3:58 AM

    Reblogged this on Dear Dad and commented:
    I came across this talented writer today and felt compelled to share her breathtakingly beautiful poem. It speaks to the heart and reinforces the power and unique beauty of each and every one of us. A beauty that sadly, so many of us forget.

    With so much media and airbrushing and ‘ideals’ – Dainty M’s poem reminds us of the importance of loving ourselves; accepting ourselves. For we are all children of God and created perfectly in His vision.

    Thank you Dainty M for this wonderful piece written from the heart.

    xx

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      Dainty M responded:
      July 27, 2016 at 7:13 PM

      Thank you Hayley for the kind words! God bless you for sharing!

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        Hayley said:
        July 28, 2016 at 5:00 AM

        It was just too beautiful not too 🙂 I’m sure your words will help and reach many xx

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    Miriam said:
    July 27, 2016 at 4:36 AM

    Powerful and poignant reminders of our own beauty. Very moving.

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    elynjay1 said:
    July 27, 2016 at 10:19 AM

    This is so beautiful…. #Interesting

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    TM said:
    July 27, 2016 at 12:47 PM

    I made you unique. One of a kind. Custom designed.

    God is talking to me. Amazing poem. So love it. Well-done.

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      Dainty M responded:
      July 27, 2016 at 7:15 PM

      Thank God He spoke to you through this. Thank you TM for the kind remarks! God bless you!

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    oneta hayes said:
    July 27, 2016 at 11:04 PM

    Made by the Master Craftsman. You have caught out attention to the fine detail God designs for each of us. Flaws are only in the eye of “the man made from dirt” not in the eye of God.

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      Dainty M responded:
      July 28, 2016 at 10:33 AM

      Aww, I like this line “Flaws are only in the eye of “the man made from dirt” not in the eye of God.” Thanks for your contribution Oneta! God bless!

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    Daniel said:
    July 29, 2016 at 8:03 PM

    wow!

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