He Loves me; He Loves me not

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It was a day to Valentines and I wondered what the day would bring. Appointments or disappointments, make ups or break ups. Would he send me a gift? Would he not?

My eyes trailed the lonely path to see a beautiful flower with delicate petals. I picked it up and watched as the flower felt secured in my palms.  I lightly tugged at a petal and said ‘he loves me’ as the mild February breeze seized the little petal. I pulled out another and said ‘he loves me not’.  As I began to pick other petals still repeating the same words, my heart shuddered at what the end of the game would yield.

I’ve always believed in love and I’ve probably watched too many Rom-coms that I can’t help but dream of the fairy-tale. I’m pretty sure I’ve seen tons of them where the girl was unsure of her man’s love and trusted the petals of a flower to tell her if he loved her or not.

Who doesn’t want to know if they are loved? Or the extents to which that love would go? That’s why there are love calculators and apps like M.A.S.H valentine or even a simple striking out game of ‘F.L.A.M.E.S’ which help you ‘know’ the extent of love or degree of compatibility.

So I lingered with the flower. Most people would say it was a lame game but it kinda meant a lot to me because I was unsure of his love for me. I never really doubted his love when I was on my best behaviour; when I was the good lover that spent hours and hours with him; who made him smile by adoring him. Yeah, he sure loved me then!

But what about the times when I was too busy for him? Times when I defiantly did the opposite of what he asked of me? What of the times I cheated on him…? My heart sank. I unconsciously squeezed the light flower in my palm and when I opened it, it looked really pale. Just like my love. 😦

‘He loves me…’

‘He loves me not.’

Three petals remained in my palm. You could already tell the result of my game. A smile that had been hiding behind the creases of my face turned up like the sun rising in the east.

I smiled at the last petal and whispered ‘he loves me.’

The thought sent electric waves down my spine. Like every lover, there were days when I was insecure about his love for me; days when I felt undeserving; days when I didn’t just feel like it- like today. But the result of the game said otherwise and I was willing to believe it.

Look! Listen! There’s my lover!

    Do you see him coming?

Vaulting the mountains,

    leaping the hills.

My lover is like a gazelle, graceful;

    like a young stag, virile.

Look at him there, on tiptoe at the gate,

    all ears, all eyes—ready!

My lover has arrived

    and he’s speaking to me!

SOS 2:8-10 (MSG)

 He loves me! I screamed as the realization began to give me more meaning. He loves me no matter what I do. He loves how weird I get. He loves how I smile one minute and cry the next. He loves how I get weak sometimes and reach out to him for help. He loves all of me. My beautiful imperfections are truly loved by a perfect God!  Nothing could ever separate me from that love! 😀 ❤ ❤

Do you ever feel unloved or undeserving? Here is a quick note to self;

Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ’s love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture:

They kill us in cold blood because they hate you.

We’re sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one.

None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us. -Rom 8:35-39 MSG)

***song for the day- His Kind of Love by Group 1 Crew***

©Mfon Etuk, 2016

 

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14 thoughts on “He Loves me; He Loves me not

    Courtney said:
    February 14, 2016 at 8:26 PM

    Great post! I like how you started off talking about earthly love and than moved to God’s love! Awesome reminder of His unending love! ❤️

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      Dainty M responded:
      February 14, 2016 at 9:06 PM

      Thank God for His love! ❤ Thanks Courtney! 🙂

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    Courtney said:
    February 14, 2016 at 8:27 PM

    Whoops, I think I used the wrong “than/then”. It should have been then! My bad, LOL!

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      Dainty M responded:
      February 14, 2016 at 9:07 PM

      LOL, it wasn’t so obvious *winks*

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    everythinginspiration said:
    February 15, 2016 at 12:27 AM

    A good piece for VAL. He definitely Loves us no matter how filthy we get, if we remember this we will know not to betray him. Even when we stray He’s ever ready show us 😘 again and again.

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      Dainty M responded:
      February 15, 2016 at 9:32 AM

      Very true! Happy Vals day!

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    Tony Michele said:
    February 15, 2016 at 2:40 PM

    Ah. To be truly known and loved – nothing compares.

    Our gaze is on the Lover. Nothing here truly compares. The One whose return and reuniting we await. 👍🏾

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      Dainty M responded:
      February 15, 2016 at 5:13 PM

      Yes indeed! Thank God for His love!

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    Fearfully Wonderfully Me said:
    February 18, 2016 at 9:18 AM

    I love that song, “His kind of love” (especially the remix). This post is so sweet! Another good song that this reminds me of is “Oh God” by Citizens.

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      Dainty M responded:
      February 18, 2016 at 10:29 AM

      Oh, I’ll definitely check that song out! Thanks Emily!

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    oyide said:
    February 26, 2016 at 2:01 AM

    This is amazing! He loves me *dancing*

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    demola said:
    March 5, 2016 at 2:50 PM

    A great piece! Its very true that at a point in our lives, we must have felt so distant from God’s love ‘cos of our wrongful deeds, hence, the thought of not being loved by our creator. The greatest msg I personally got from this is that regardless of what ever circumstances we find ourselves, we shld always remember His burning Love for us is unquenchable. Thanks dear for blessing lives.

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      Dainty M responded:
      March 5, 2016 at 8:43 PM

      Very true indeed! Thank God for His love! Thanks for the constant encouragement Demola!

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