Month: October 2015
I dread the night. Horror
The darkness reaches out its cold arms
Pulling me into an embrace of pain. Terror
Pain in my body
Pain in my mind
Please don’t rain the pain on me tonight
I dread the fear and its slithery fingers
Piercing into my skin with claws so sharp
Digging into my flesh with steely fangs
Breaking down my walls. Defenceless.
My mind is a dreadful web
And I’m trapped in it
Can’t feel a thing. Numb
Please don’t allow the dread drain me tonight
Take the pain away
Make me the fearless girl I see in my dreams-
Make me the me I see in you
Mfon Etuk, 2015
It’s been some six months now in Lagos (the busiest city in Nigeria) but I still don’t get the whole commuting process. You walk to a bus stop, keep your ears open through deafening sounds as bus conductors yell out the names of their various destinations.
So there I stand, looking so lost and paranoid as I tighten my grip on my handbag while waiting for a bus. A bus soon arrives heading my way and the other impatient commuters almost throw me off course as they push and shove their way into the bus. I just don’t get the rush! An average Lagosian walks at five steps per second (Ok, maybe I’m exaggerating) but you get the point; everyone is in a hurry.
The first bus leaves and then the next and I begin to pace as I frantically glance at my wrist watch. ‘Lord, send me my bus’ I silently pray. Emphasis here is on ‘my’ not just ‘a’ bus but ‘my’ bus. Now this is where we take this analogy into other things that matter far more than just getting a ride to our destinations.
There’s a bus for everyone. But most times we miss it as a result of impatience. Let’s face it, the world is in such a hurry that we begin to set time for God (the one who created time). We say stuffs like; Lord, I want to graduate at 21. Get married at 24. And while you’re at it, get me that multi-billion dollar contract before I turn 30. And God is probably smiling as He looks at the master plan and shakes his head like ‘these kids don’t know what they are saying’.
Ever heard that line ‘God is always right on time’? Well, it doesn’t always look like it. Come on! We’ve been waiting for good stuffs to happen. Time is running out. I want to graduate. I want to get married. I want to have kids. I want that big job. I want to move to a new location. God, are you even listening? And then He goes; Chill child, I’ve got this. Wait for it.
Only a few of us would heed and wait. But within a few months we begin to panic. Oh God, it’s not happening. You said I should wait, but clearly you’ve forgotten about me. Look at my friends, they’ve got new jobs, new cars and did you see that Diamond rock on her finger? Or don’t you love me?
Some of us even decide to help him. Umm, Lord, you’re yet to send the man after your heart for me, but come on, this guy here is good. He doesn’t believe in you but he helps people. I guess this is it Lord. Oh yes! Even Sarah did it; we’ve been waiting for this son you promised. Well, maybe you wanted us to figure out how to make it happen. So here, Abraham, take Hagar and let’s make a baby! We feel God is not fast enough and we want to help catalyze the process.
Personally, I think it’s not in our DNAs to wait. We want things and we want them NOW!!! We push, we shove, just to have our ways. We even sulk, get angry at God, and get envious of our friends who seem to be having things working right for them. When things aren’t happening at our pace, we feel God is slow. So slow, the internet explorer is way faster!
Sometimes God allows us have our way. We get on-board the wrong buses and learn the lessons we could have avoided on the journey. The relationship we hurried into turns sour. The stuffs we pushed others to have doesn’t satisfy any more. We end up in a miserable state we didn’t have to be, if only we waited.
Waiting is hard. It’s frustrating. The worst part is when you’re waiting and others are moving. Ever been on a lane in traffic that isn’t moving an inch and you look through the window to see another lane where the cars are flying past. You’d be tempted to blame yourself or the driver for not being on that lane or in that fast moving bus.
To be honest, there would be such moments when people around you would seemingly be on fast lanes. Getting different breakthroughs they didn’t necessarily have to wait for. And you might begin to panic. But at that point, it is most crucial that you hang on to the promises God has made to you through his word.
So let’s do it—full of belief, confident that we’re presentable inside and out. Let’s keep a firm grip on the promises that keep us going. He always keeps his word-Heb 10:23 (MSG)
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful-Heb 10:23 (NIV)
Back to my story. Within a few minutes, ‘my’ bus arrived. No one struggled with me for it. The bus waited till I got in and I even got a comfortable seat! I got to my destination right on time. And I smiled within myself and blessed God. 🙂
Please note, this doesn’t always happen in the physical sense of it in Lagos; especially if your faith doesn’t carry it; you may just end up getting super late for work. Please be wise in this regard!
However, in the spiritual sense of it, it is important you are sensitive to your correct bus. Don’t get on the wrong bus just because it’s on the fast lane. Besides, why hurry when the one who controls time says ‘it’s not yet time’? He will make things happen for you at the time He has appointed, and believe me, there’s no time more perfect than that!
Take a chill pill. Relax. God’s got this. 🙂
It’s always my desire that you live victorious lives.
Lots of love ❤
Mfon Etuk, 2015
It’s a lovely weekend over here. My country celebrated her 55th year of independence 2 days back and it was really cool. God bless Nigeria! *waves imaginary flag*
Lately I’ve been exploring photography using this awesome camera phone I got. Plus I’ve been busy with some editing as well. I’ll be sharing some of the pictures and some quotes on creativity you need to reflect on this weekend.
Let’s get creative! 😉
To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong- Joseph Chilton Pearce
How is your devotion? Boring? Why not make it colorful and fun! 🙂
Creativity involves breaking out of established patterns in order to look at things in a different way- Edward de Bono
See what the others don’t see- that’s creativity!
Creativity is intelligence having fun- Albert Einstein
My journals!!! Don’t you just love em! Each has its own story to tell 🙂
Ooops! Only a few can read this… but never forget, God loves you! ❤
Creativity can release you from the limitations that the world has constructed around you; the everyday, mundane, 9-5 jail cell where everybody is waiting for the weekend to party so they can get outside of their head. –Robert LaSardo
It’s a wrap for today!
Do something creative everyday and remember to have fun doing it! 🙂
Creativity is contagious, pass it on! -Albert Einstein
Lots of love ❤
Mfon Etuk, 2015